Tuesday, August 24, 2010

there is no rewind button


The lazy days of summer are gone. There is no rewind button.

We're into our 2nd week of school and suddenly we've become a slave to the calendar -- back to school nights, parent meetings, dance team practice, club activities, and football games. We are booked. It might sound like I'm complaining but I'm not. It's a big year for both of our girls; senior year and freshman year. I am determined to be plugged in for everything with each of them. I don't dare miss a single thing because there is no rewind button.

We also did a senior portrait session last week. We've only been given a sneek peak but we absolutely love what we've seen so far. Senior year activities are making it very clear that there is no rewind button.

Senior parent meetings this week reinforced the fact that there is no rewind button. High school counselors have informed us of important deadline dates for ACT testing, college admission forms, scholarship applications, etc. 

And as big as the year is for her because it's her last year of high school, it is just that big for her sister too as it is her first year of high school. As I said, it's the 2nd week of school and already I have witnessed multiple bittersweet moments where I've caught myself near tears.

Day 1 as they loaded up in the car to leave for school, I suddenly realized that for the first time in 12 years I don't have anyone to take to school. The sound of their laughter and singing together that morning was music to my ears but the fact that I was by myself made it bittersweet. So glad we took advantage of our mornings together all those years because....yes, there is no rewind button.

And seeing my youngest leave the house in her dance team uniform fills me with pride. She loves being on that team and it is evident by her smile. I've watched countless run-throughs at home and each time she's wearing that big smile. First day in high school and she performed at an all school assembly; nothing like starting right out of the gate, huh? Hearing her tell me that she wasn't nervous and she did great brought a smile to my face. 

Like I said, I'm going to be plugged in this year for every.single.event because in 4 more years I'll be well aware once again that there is no rewind button.

9 comments:

Denise said...

okay, wow! this one is making me think for sure. powerful post Nancy.

Jenni said...

Just enjoy each moment, even if they bring some tears. I think the second one is easier, although that may be because the second wasn't also the last for me. But I'm hoping it just gets easier and easier as I learn what my new role in life is. Don't blink. I think that song fits better than the one I had in mind after reading the title of this post. (Although it's a great title and the song it made me think of is also a great song--which I'm going to go listen to right now.)

Jenni said...

Okay, you need to read this post: http://annamariahorner.blogspot.com/2010/08/bridge.html. How wild that I read this one right after yours. Better grab some kleenex.

Michelle said...

I would really appreciate if you would STOP making me CRY, thankyouverymuch. Great post...seize the moment...this is the day the Lord has made...let us rejoice and be glad in it!! xoxo

Lori Thomas said...

Nancy, I grew up in Council Grove and enjoyed talking to you at grade school games. I found your blog via Hope Lee Davis and enjoy it. I live in Olathe and have a son who is a junior and a daughter that is a freshman. I can so totally relate to the fact that the kids are quickly growing up and that there is "no rewind button"!
Lori (Heilman) Thomas
thomas4inkc@yahoo.com

Beegirl said...

Thanks for stopping by.. I missed you all. Love this post and your menu plan too. It makes me crazy to have a full calendar. Provokes anxiety. So glad you are looking forward to all the activities. Time goes by so fast. Happy start of school to you!!

The Frat Pack + Me said...

I love this post. It is something I am reminding myself of daily. I want to enjoy each and every second. It goes so fast, doesn't it?

underthebigbluesky said...

loved this. so true. so, so very true.

and really, does it take much to make Michelle cry? lol.

thank you for this. i just need to say. because my girls are still so small and it's so nice to see how beautiful and lovely, and happy and proud your girls are. a testament to you i think!

gives me hope :-)

Sharon said...

Nancy,
Yes, stay plugged in...because it goes very, very fast. I can attest to this as my oldest is getting married, my second is in her LAST year of college, and my third is starting high school. Tagging very close behind her is my son finishing middle school. I remember my older daughters being in your very situation. My oldest was a senior when my second was a freshman. It's a great time, treasure every minute. (and hold onto your checkbook...you won't believe how expensive senior year is! :-)

Looking forward to following your year with your girls!